www.gotoandlearn.com

Gotoandlearn is a very good resources center for any flash,flex or air designer and developer. I am hooked with this site for several months and best thing about it its .. its absolutly free.

Thanks to Lee Brimelow who is the creater of this website, it allowes me to lern many new things in flash and action script.

coming back to life

Where were you when I was burned and broken
While the days slipped by from my window watching
Where were you when I was hurt and I was helpless
Because the things you say and the things you do surround me
While you were hanging yourself on someone elses words
Dying to believe in what you heard
I was staring straight into the shining sun

Lost in thought and lost in time
While the seeds of live and the seeds of change were planted

Outside the rain fell dark and slow
While I pondered on this dangerous but
I took a heavenly ride through one silence
I knew the moment had arrived
For killing the past and coming back to life

I know thins song from ages..Anup used to sing loud in Tapase room whenever we have night out and we name it as Anps song. It went years, yesterday i heard it accidentally. i was really annoyed in the beaning because the song has upbeat mode sounds like romantic song and i am not in any short of mood for romantic songs then in close attention, i found out its more of recovery song and it explains the up mellow rhythmic bit and title coming back to life explains it all.

Designers Block

I’m having terrible designers block , i know this is the turning point in my life , the worst time i could ever imagine having it. Life if fucking bitch, ain’t it ? when you need something really bad then it takes everything away even the basic component for designer to have; imagination and peace of mind.

First of all if you don’t know what is designers block ? then its like writers block when writers looses ability to produce new work. It happen to designer as well when they can’t crank up the amazing designs. sometime it gets really frustrating and they end up changing there careers. Praying to god please don’t let this happen to me, finger crossed. However since last few months i really can’t able to think properly even for the simplest design I’m having huge difficulty. One of the design was so dark even my client comment its too morbid for his business. I hate bright colors these days, may be its the cold weather or perhaps the reflection of the cold people around me. Struggling understanding basic patterns of life , totally messed up, i don’t have any world for it.  Big SAD FACE

I know i have to get over this as quickly as possible nevertheless everything is against me. I don’t know how my life became so complected, when is the last time i was in such a mess but i tell you; i will get out of this and it would be fucking god dame successful.

From the movie Catch Me If You Can

Two little mice fell in a bucket of cream. The first mouse quickly gave up and drowned. The second mouse, wouldn’t quit. He struggled so hard that eventually he churned that cream into butter and crawled out. Gentlemen, as of this moment, I am that second mouse.

Its time to go home..almost 8pm still in office strugglin…fucking hell i am working more then 12 hours a day but at the end of the day with zero result in hand…..

sincere apology  for swearing but i need to get this off my chest… hopeful it works…
listening to Shine on you crazy diamond. its almost midnight

Remember when you were young, you shone like the sun.
Now there’s a look in your eyes, like black holes in the sky.

www.nepstra.com

Nepstra.com is the name of the  portal that I’m going to build for Nepalese communities around the globe for sharing news, information and resources, I’ve designed the logo, and i was very lucky, instantly, i get the right idea spend sometime on paper scratch head few times, pull out some hairs then finally nailed it.  it shows community, communication and sharing.
Nepstra is the amalgamation of nepal and australia, for this project I’m tied up with Mr Jan Bandhu Bhattrai, current present of NAWS(Nepal AUstralia Welfare Society) He is nice a friend, like minded and cool dude.

We evaluate many prospective and decided to lunch the site before the Football final on 21 of August 2009, I know its very difficult, these days i am not looking for easy things in life ..hehe ..

Here are some logos, the logo we select has Nepali flag colors and N is flicked to look like “Na” in Nepali there are 4 guys making a huddle , its the top view clearly see the arm and head . It shows community group help and coming to one conclusion and place.

I’m pretty positive about the logo and working my ass off to making this Huge … hehe

Chow